A Thought on the Parsha

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The Sound of Silence

Silence is the last word one would think to use to characterize the climax of the story of Yosef and his brothers. Indeed, our parasha opens with Yehudah's heartfelt and impassioned plea to Yosef to free Binyamin, and the words so powerfully convey Yehudah's unflinching loyalty to Binyamin and the anguish of his father, Yaakov, that Yosef can no longer contain himself. His emotions burst forth, and he reveals himself to his brothers. And if Yehudah's words can stir powerful, positive emotions, Yosef's words have the power to calm turbulent, potentially destructive ones: "Now, do not be anguished, and do not reproach yourselves that you have sold me here, for it is to be a source of life that God has sent me ahead of you." (Breishit 45:4).

Even as the story reaches its dénouement, there is much talking. Talking about how to report back to Yaakov about what has happened, talking about how the land of Egypt is open to Yaakov and his family and how they should arrange their emigration from Canaan, talking to Yaakov about what has happened, Yaakov's exclamation of wonderment at the news, God's talking to Yaakov before he leaves Canaan, Yosef's talking to his brothers to prepare them for their meeting with Pharaoh, Pharaoh's talking to the brothers, Pharaoh's talking to Yaakov, and finally Yaakov's blessing of Pharaoh. So there is indeed much, much talking in this parasha. But in the midst of all this talking, and the beehive of activity that surrounds it, there is a profound, poignant moment of silence:

And Yisrael said to Yosef, "I can now die, after that I have seen your face, that you are still alive."

And Yosef said to his brothers and to his father's household, "I will go up and report to Pharaoh, and I will tell him, "My brothers and my father's household from the Land of Canaan have come to me."

(46:30-31)

What just happened here? Yaakov and Yosef meet after a 22 year separation, Yaakov having believed Yosef to be dead, but perhaps not so sure, perhaps suspecting that the brothers had something to do with the whole thing. And Yosef wondering - who knows what? Perhaps thinking that his father didn't care that he was gone, perhaps even suspecting that his father was unconcerned the danger that befell him, or even more so believing that his father had conspired by sending him to his brothers when they were shepherding while knowing how much they hated him. Or even if these troubling thoughts were kept at bay, Yosef certainly after hearing Yehudah's passionate speech knew how bereaved his father now felt and how his absence had taken such a serious toll on Yaakov.

And now, after these long 22 years, they finally reconcile, and Yaakov lets forth an exclamation of joy, tinged with his past suffering, but of joy nevertheless. And then what? Silence. Yosef does not respond. He says not one word to his father. Or rather, not silence, but a lot of irrelevant talking. Talking to the wrong people - his brothers and his father's household, but not to his father - and talking about the wrong things - "Oh, let's go tell Pharaoh that you are here." The abrupt transition in these two verses is the conversational equivalent of "Great to see you Dad. Oh, look at the time. Gotta go." A lot of talking, a lot of busy-ness, but a profound silence. No one is talking about what needs to be talked about. Not just, "I missed you so much. I can't believe we are together again." But also, "What really happened that day, 22 years ago?" "Why did you send me to check on my brothers, knowing how much they hated me?" No, we'll talk about that later. There is too much to do now. Too much other talking that needs to take place.

People talking without speaking...

And no one dared
Disturb the sound of silence

"Fools," said I, "You do not know
Silence like a cancer grows..."

("Sound of Silence," Simon and Garfunkel)

The impassioned, heart-wrenching communication at the beginning of parasha, is replaced by a lot of pragmatic, businesslike talking at the end of the parasha. The words that are unspoken continue to hover in the background. The silence grows like a cancer, eating away at Yosef and at Yaakov from the inside, continuing to fester, preventing them from bringing these difficult issues to the surface, so that they can be dealt with, and resolved.

And the silence also grows like a wall to divide Yaakov and Yosef. It prevents them from ever truly connecting again on a deep, personal level. Yosef is too busy to talk to his father when he arrives, and remains too busy to talk to his father throughout the rest of his life. So much so, that when Yaakov finally speaks to Yosef again, it is at the end of Yaakov's life, on his deathbed, and it is for the very practical purpose of arranging for his own burial. During the exchange, we find out that they have communicated so little that Yaakov does not even know his own grandchildren. He knows about them - the facts he has - but he does not recognize them. "And Yisrael saw the sons of Yosef, and he said, 'Who are these?' And Yosef said to his father, 'They are my sons...'" (48:8-9). Because Yaakov and Yosef are not able to talk about what needs to be talked about, they wind up talking about very little. Or, at least, very little that really matters.

There is, finally, one moment when the silence is broken. But then it is too late. For when Yaakov dies, Yosef's brothers grow very concerned about how Yosef will now treat them. "And the brothers of Yosef saw that their father had died, and they said, 'Perhaps Yosef will now nurse his hatred against us, and return to us all the evil that we have done to him." (50:15). So what did they do? They invented a conversation that never happened:

And they commanded that Yosef be told, "Your father commanded, before his death, saying: 'So shall you say to Yosef: Please forgive the iniquity of your brothers, and their trespass, for they have committed evil against you.' So now, please forgive to sin of the servants of your father's God." And Yosef wept when they spoke to him.

(50:16-17)

Why did Yosef weep? Perhaps because they thought ill of him, or suspected that he could still be harboring resentment and ill will about what had happened oh so many years ago. Or perhaps he wept because he saw that his brothers were so anguished and fearful. But I believe he wept for a different reason. I believe he wept because he realized that his father never said - never could have said - such a thing. His father had never, and would never, break the implicit pact of silence around these matters. He wept because what was said after his father's death - what had needed to be said for so long, was never said in his father's life.

He wept for Yaakov, for Yaakov died having never had a chance to talk about what was eating away at him - his suspicions about Yosef's brothers and what they might have done - and he went to his grave with this cancer inside him. And he wept for himself, for never having been able to bring himself to talk about his own suspicions, his own doubts to his father. For never having been able to bring up all the messiness, so that it could be expelled, and so that a true relationship could be reestablished.

And he wept for his brothers. For his brothers who could not talk to him about these things before. For his brothers who even now could not talk to him about it directly - having to send someone to present their case in their stead. For his brothers who even now could not talk about these things in their own voice, but who had to attribute them to their father, Yaakov.

And perhaps he wept for his own silencing of his brothers. For the fact that he was so quick to forgive them when he first revealed himself to them, that he did not give them a chance to talk about their guilt, about their remorse. Here was a time when he needed to be silent, so that others could be heard. To be forgiven before asking for forgiveness is a blessing, but it is also a curse. It silences voices that need to be heard. It prevents true healing from taking place.

We know well the power of speech. We know how words can kill and how words can heal. We also must know the power of silence. Silence can kill - kill a relationship, kill a friendship, kill a marriage. But silence can also heal. Silence that is there not to cover up, to avoid, to distract, but a silence that is there to make space, to listen, to open up, to allow another in, to allow another to speak, that is a silence that can give life, that is a silence that is a blessing to the soul. "There is a time to be silent, and a time to talk." (Kohelet 3:7). Let us always know which is which, so that both our talking and our silence bring with them life and healing to ourselves and to others.

Shabbat shalom!